Cause March Hols' been revolving around 给愚蠢的人.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
5:59 PM
Maybe this has become 启航's new slogan. WE HAVE NO RIGHT TO FAIL. 没有失败的权力. No reason, no rights.
I remember being in props team for my first 启航. That passion that seniors felt about 启航, I honestly hope it hasn't died down. I'm really thankful that I didn't just let 启航 slip thru my fingers that year. I stayed back everyday for props, yes, everyday, cause our props were really really elaborate, and I saw how tired seniors were, but they still came down to help. As a pretty carefree sec one, all the more I should come down. Formed bonds within members, especially seniors, but then, sadly, all of that has sorta blurred down to few fuzzy little details. Just a small little vague meager piece of memory.
Two years passed, and we were unfortunately unable to do 启航. Seniors graduated with regrets, seniors told the Green badges that we will be the one who has to live their dreams. Two years passed, and 启航 was like buried under everything else. Lost, and gone.
So only the Green Badges know what is 启航 all about. 启航 met so many obstacles, one of them being the splitting of CCS's drama WING into a brand new CCA. Half the number of people honestly made it very difficult. But all these stupid difficulties aside, I know each Green Badger knows that we have to make it a legacy, a legend for our juniors, and to find back 启航, so that 启航 continues down.
I remember being told that I was in "artistic comm" comprising of the directors. I know it is an honor, and I'm thankful for that, but some parts of me really did not want it. Directing, just means I could not act. Not only directing, script writing too. Directing, just means being really really really busy. But we traveled on this long and tedious road. We have what, nearly zilch experience, and yet we have half the time. We have 启航'2007 in June, but 启航'2010 in March. :0 Beat that. Sleeping everywhere is like our trademark or something. Qiaoer and many felt asleep on my couch watching rehearsals. I fell asleep eating dinner on the couch, and my parents had to wake me and ask if I still wanted to continue eating. Hahaha! Thought telling it to Huimin would be hilarious, but I got a response like "Oh ya, I did that several times too, like nearly everyday now".
Now we only left just ONE day. And I honestly don't know what to feel. SAT will show it all, will we prove our audiences that $10 was more than worth it? But most importantly, will we be able to show ourselves that all those long hours of rehearsals have been worth it? 4 times a week, 3 hours at each shot. And to spend our entire March Hols on 启航. At least I know with director meetings, it's been about 12 hours a day. And today, we even had a intimating session of 4 directors to 1 actress.
And these are dedicated to my rockstars;
给愚蠢的人,
Perform without any worries, we're trained so hard. All of you all have bloomed into fabulous actresses. So shine on that day, and leave no regrets. Feel that character, that character is you, and you are that character. Feel the exhilarating rush. The stage is all yours, and let the warm stage magic fill you. Most importantly, enjoy those times on stage. Enjoy having earned the chance of performing on stage.
I feel like a old mother hen sometimes. I feel like on Sat, all the actresses can grow their wings and fly, I mean, somewhat, cause chickens can't fly, and I'll be backstage, doing their lightings. I've always enjoyed performing on stage. I feel that exhilaring rush when I see the audiences enjoy it. It makes me feel like everything's worth it. I really wonder how being backstage, looking at the LCD screen and doing lightings will feel. I wonder, and I feel slightly empty now. Thankfully I didn't have the bad dream that Vivian had regarding performance. I just feel like the world's spinning, uh, partly lack of sleep. But I wonder what SAT is like. No one can tell what the future holds, can they?
给愚蠢的人, rock on.
The childish part of me wants a sleepover. But sleepover got rejected on the reason of everyone has no time to complete their schwork. Haha. And of course I know, school's important.